Wednesday, May 16, 2012

it's not goodbye, it's see you later.

after three years of blogging, this is my final post on the grownup diaries.

i've felt for a long time that i no longer want to fill with this place with my words. i have never pushed this blog out to people because i didn't think they'd want to read my ramblings, especially from the earlier days of the blog. i didn't tweet it, put it on facebook, or even talk about it much. ironically, i feel like i've outgrown the grownup diaries, and it's been hard to come up with content. don't get me wrong - i'm glad i kept record of the past three years of my life - but when i made the decision last week to stop writing here, i felt great.

like the title of this post indicates, it's not goodbye. i've started a new blogging adventure, which i hope will reach more people. for example, i might start by actually admitting i have a blog in public. you can find it in its rough, early format (that's right, you guys are getting the FIRST GLIMPSE) over at afreshstartformolly.wordpress.com. i'm even going to repost some of my posts from here that have to do with the content of the new blog, which is loosely based around healthy living, goal setting, etc.

if you did happen to have me on your blogroll, it would be great if you could update it with the new address. i'll probably keep the grownup diaries up until i get around to saving all the entries and taking it down (which may never happen, if i'm being honest). thank you to those of you who did get to follow along and i hope you come join me at AFSFM (i just made up that acronym....i don't think it's going to stick).

see you over here!

Monday, May 7, 2012

sunshine state recap.

since returning from florida we've developed photos, posted some on facebook and made a 16-minute vacation video.

forever immortalizing a vacation is exhausting. that means i'm going to try to make this post short.

d. and i went to florida for seven days and it was our first big vacation together out of the 3.5 years we've been dating. i never would have thought that florida would be a good setting for a couples trip. we had originally planned on going to punta cana, but then a deal popped up for a resort in kissimmee that we couldn't refuse.

i mean, eating at chili's and olive garden and thinking you're going to die on roller coasters aren't exactly the most traditionally romantic settings, but the trip still ended up being exactly what we needed for our relationship. it doesn't really matter where you go, if you have a break from routine and all the time in the world just to chat about your hopes and dreams and all that lovey dovey crap, vacation is going to end up being a great thing for a couple (unless you just can't travel together. which thankfully we found out we could).

anyway, here's a brief recap of what we did:

day one:

travel from bangor to new york to orlando. arrive. settle in. watch old wrinkled tan people get drunk at the hotel bar.

day two:

shopping at the outlets! holy crap it was busy! i was devastated to see the kate spade new york store was closed. DEVASTATED. that night we went out the bars at universal citywalk and it was amazing. i am a huge fan of drinking in the street.

day three:

did some lounging by the pool and more shopping (it was raining off and on). kate spade new york was finally open and my wallet paid for it.

day four:

the happiest place on earth - disney world's magic kingdom! as i am the last person on the planet to have not gone there before, i'll spare you my review. but i promise you really will feel happy when you're there!

day five:

universal's islands of adventure. our favourite day. turns out i love rides! HARRY POTTER WORLD (aka the wizarding world of harry potter) blew my mind. if anyone would like a separate post on this i will write one like the good lil' nerd i am.

day six:

downtown orlando and an orlando magic nba game. we saw the last regular season home game. it was our first pro sport experience and we absolutely loved it! d. and i are not nhl fans, and that puts us in the minority up here in canada, so it was nice to be surrounded by b-ball enthusiasts like ourselves.

day seven:

cocoa beach. it was a brilliant idea to spend the last day lazing around. i didn't do much swimming but the water was so nice - although i heard people complaining it was too cold. ha! come visit our section of the atlantic!

to summarize:
1. you should go to florida.
2. if you go to florida, do what we did.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

his birthday.


there are two things i don't like about my boyfriend, d.

1. he eats things too fast. examples: chocolate bars in three bites, french fries six at a time, chips by the giant handful.
2. he doesn't like to make a big deal about birthdays.

i'm sure if i put some effort into it i could find more, but those are the only ones that really come to mind. as male human beings go, d. is pretty great.

i once asked d. if he could ever remember getting the vibe from anyone (childhood classmates, coworkers, profs) that they didn't like him. most everyone has had someone not like them, for whatever reason. d. said no. this is probably absolutely true.

i am completely aware of the irony surrounding the fact that i ended up with someone who emulates the phrase good person. in fact, if ever for some reason - perhaps in a fit of rage - you decided to tell me i don't deserve him, i would merely smile and say "duh."

happy birthday, d. even if you don't care to make a big deal of it. i hope you had a good day with a buffet lunch (although you ate your garlic fingers too fast), your fave casserole for supper and a drink with my parents (your bff's) to cap it all off. love you.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

vacation molly

vacation molly arrived on the evening of thursday, april 26, the night before i boarded a plan to florida. she died a silent death on the morning of sunday, april 29, when i started preparing for my return to work the next day.

she is missed.

i revealed two things in yesterday's post that may explain more clearly the way the last few months have gone: i keep a lot of lists and my mental health is fragile. these are two things i do not like about myself. i am constantly coming up with new tasks and i will stop at nothing to complete them, even if they're not that important. when i wasn't getting my energy out through exercise, it got even worse. cleaning, cooking, meal planning, shopping, pinning, planning. frankly, it drives me crazy and makes me miss the days when i thought i would always be prone to laziness (teenage molly, university  molly: you weren't so bad).

vacation molly is a great person. she spent her time in florida completely free of her cell phone, internet AND notebooks. she made decisions in a split second and went with the flow. when it rained, she didn't even mind. she spoke kindly to her boyfriend and kissed him in public. she didn't beat herself up about spending money.

then she came home.

oh look! my notebook is mysteriously full again. of course, i told myself i HAD to make the bf's birthday (tomorrow) perfect even though he could care less about the anniversary of his mother giving birth (she sends him emotional cards, he says "meh"). he requested a grocery store cake and i said over.my.dead.body so of course i feel overwhelmed getting everything together in time.

vacation molly would be so sad.

i am resolving to let vacation molly come out to play more often. she is good for me and good for people around me and i don't care if i don't even have a vacation in the foreseeable future, i still want her here.